Sunday, December 20, 2009

Missing Something

How many times in a day you feel the above, today as i am sitting alone, this thought comes up in my mind every now & then. This one thought hits everybody & hits u hard when you are the most busy in life.

For months, i have been on a ride, a ride of experiences, learning,fast paced life where you want to keep everybody happy.But i have not been at my best at many situations & have been absurd,pathetic & have acted low. But all this time, i din realize, i was missing on anything, i was jus moving in one direction which i thought was right & ignoring everything i kept on moving.

Slowly, i was turning into a loner which something, i was never. I dunno whether i was liking it or not or i am gonna continue with it. Today i miss spending some more quality time with her, today i miss having some fun with frendz rather than just opening facebook & getting to know whats happening.

Now She's gone & i feel , it would have been much better if i would have fought less over where to eat, to go shopping or not, to walk or to talk. Today i miss everything & i got to know, i liked even waiting outside the trial room & having endless paani poori everytime. I liked the fights over "Pink" colour & length of my hair.
I miss watching a movie 2-3 times with her, entering the theatre late & then sleeping in between. I miss waiting for her to go through dozens of clothes & picking another dozen to come to a conclusion to pick one. I miss our shoplifting experience. I miss the late night auto rides,going back home...

I miss waiting outside her place (something i have fought the most about it bringing her to tears). I miss my experience with Sambhar rice & other stuff including eating with hand.

I miss the walks, I miss begging her to let me smoke one & jus one cigarette.I miss she shrugging for paying the auto driver more & her lectures on saving money :)

I miss her annoying talks on how she messed up her exam & i reading her out the discussion on forums, how she has not messed up.

I miss paying for her shopping bills, which exceed my budget & then she returning them back to get something for me.

But the most i miss is being with her, just sitting and talking endlessly & she listening as she is most bothered.

But something i missed on the way was saying "Sorry" & "Thankyou" more times than i said.
I missed on giving her flowers, though she said 100 times indirectly to me. I missed on being more understanding, when she was going through some bad times.I missed on saying, "For me too", when she said, "These were the best 6 months ever".
I hope we get another chance to live the above moments & I'l try to make it up in the best possible way.


Rohit said...

:-) Nice post

Ved Pragyan said...

awwwww.... my sweet senti bro :) :P

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Full Of Life said...

Aww, really, best gift you could have given her. I'm sure this means more than those flowers and stuff you missed out on.

I've never seen you this senti. Still reeling from reading such a post on your blog.

Again, the khetri one remains my ALL time fav.

Also, Im 6 months late I know. But better late than never!