Thursday, August 7, 2008

Dunno


I Dunno where it is moving,
I Dunno am i rising or sinking,
I Dunno its a breeze or a storm,
I Dunno its right or wrong
But Mayb i am not Alone !!!

For a very long time, i have been accessing other people accounts,some in college,some school mates,some of them whom i don't even know.
Today i was going through one such account & read a few conversations about how there lives are turning BIG,these guys are going to USA,start there lives & live there dreams.

Yeah !!! Dreams that word struck me & suddenly it came to me what am i doing???

Presently, i am just trying trying to find out what interests me, i have been successful in chalking out a couple of things but its still vague & the path is a difficult one.

These days, i see every guy/gal around me preparing for GRE/CAT. People want to go to USA,study hard & in the end earn pride && Loads of bucks,Marry a hot chic or in case of chics itself marry a guy with a hefty salary that too in USD :)

Or ppl want to be a MBA,get there degree from the prestigious B-Schools & then they do the same.

For the past few years,i have been listening to these things & have been asking myself, What do you want to do??? Actually,These days the question is "Wat the fuck do u want to do??? "

Everytime i asked myself GRE/CAT???,which is the usual two options after being an engineering graduate in India.
I always ended up with a "No",ppl are amused after seeing such a reaction but i have my own reasons.
I see people going for such courses just for the sake of pride & money.
Some people have interests but majority of them do not even know wat is there interest???

I was going through one such US MS/Phd aspirant account & found that he din even know which universities to go for which he has to choose after closing her GRE Score which was around some 1500,leave apart the course/interest he wants to pursue.

About such cases.i can see it was good that there parents have enough money to shell out to get there wards signed up for a degree in USA.

Nevertheless,my point is why should i do something which doesn't interest me,i defied my undergrad learning of electronics becoz it absolutely doesn't interest me & did whatever i wanted to do, be it leaning programming,hacking or writing a couple of shitty ebuks on my college girls.

Second thing about all this is the money race, everybody wants to be rich,nobody wants to do what they actually want to do???
Thats why India is so short of acclaimed artists,Indians are worldwide known for doing routine jobs & than China gives them competition there too.

My parents call me eccentric when i say, i want to do something that makes me happy rather than i get to dine in a five star hotel every weekend.

I hate being tied up to something & do it the regular way whereas i see everybody just doing it the other way round.

Today,
I want to shout & say, i fucking don't want to be MS or MBA just becoz everybody around me is doing that.

But i dunno,whether i am doing something wrong becoz its like i see myself sitting & exploring a few things while others are already in the race.

Mayb dwon the years people will call me a looser but i want to be a happy looser rather dan a sad,tired winner !!!

We all are like a dyslexic student, who are asked by everyone around us to be First in there class.

Life is a race but not if you don't want to come first !!!

3 comments:

Gaurav said...

Well said..
these people who make these decisions without knwing their interests will definately lookbak and regret on the waste of their crucial years... it also reminds me of that steve jobs saying.
"do what u love and love what you do"

Adithya Gangidi said...

well yea.. passion is damn too important man.. well u shudnt reject an MS or PhD js cos ..evryones doin it..
the difference is .. u do it with INTREST and not like every 1..

after all whats ur goal of life..?? and if an MS/PhD/MBA help u getting ther..??
if not what else helps best?
as simple as answering these question should help u figure out ...

Adithya Gangidi said...

well yea.. passion is damn too important man.. well u shudnt reject an MS or PhD js cos ..evryones doin it..
the difference is .. u do it with INTREST and not like every 1..

after all whats ur goal of life..?? and if an MS/PhD/MBA help u getting ther..??
if not what else helps best?
as simple as answering these question should help u figure out ...